It's morning on a gorgeous, sunny November day in Los Angeles. Allow me to take you inside my brain for a moment, and introduce you to just a few of the thoughts that swirl around as I try to decide what to get working on today.
It goes something like this... I should be doing my sketchbook art. No, I need to make jewelry for my event this weekend. My customers want to see something new. No, I need to photograph and list the jewelry I already have. No, I promised my mentor I would write my Mission Statement this week. But wait, first I should send out a newsletter. How will my customers know where to find me? No, wait, I'm supposed to be looking for grant money. So I can pay off my art coaching program. And frame the twenty two pieces in my "Water Spirit" series. So I can find representation and have a one woman show. Which reminds me, I'm supposed to get working on my PDF portfolio. But wait, I should go downtown because I need some pearls drilled for the weekend...
Get the idea?
So what did I do to quiet down all that noise? I meditated. At first I thought I would chant, which I've taken a liking to. But even that felt too noisy at the moment. So I just closed my eyes and sat there in silence for 15 minutes. And you know what came up? Swirling fuchsia behind my eyelids. And the message to write this blog post, in which I feel compelled to talk about the fact that I'm a North Node in Scorpio, South Node in Taurus in the 12th house.
"What???" you say. "What kind of Astrological mumbo jumbo is that?" And it sounds suspiciously like you are further deflecting from above mentioned swirling list (kind of like doing the dishes, or washing your hair or taking a nap) by bringing this up. But let me explain. The North Node is supposed to reveal our highest path to growth in this lifetime. And for me, I believe it includes sharing the things I've been learning, in the hopes it may help you on your path as well. So here goes... What this placement means for me, is that I've already mastered security and comfort in other lifetimes (Taurus in the 6th house, my South Node), and my goal in this lifetime is to step away from over reliance on the physical and learn the energy of risk, transformation, change and the unknown, as well as to dive into my subconscious mind to see what's going on in there, and develop my intuition (Scorpio in the 12th House, my North Node). By the way, I think my sketch of the candles at the Basilica di San Marco in Venice from earlier this year pictured here captures a bit of that intrigue I have with mysticism.
Those who really know me will say.... "Well, that explains a few things".
Learning this placement in my Natal Chart has given me comfort and insight into why I have been so drawn to challenge and upheaval in this lifetime. And why I chose to let go of possessions and a secure job, trading the known for a nomadic artist's life of travel, adventure, and the unknown. For a long time I just thought "What's WRONG with me? Why can't I just be normal?"
It actually became the subject of "Just Looking", a self portrait I did in 2018, pictured here. I portrayed myself as a Mermaid peering into a window where perhaps I was curiously observing a more orderly and secure lifestyle, a place in which I ultimately knew I didn't belong. My piece expressed my personal journey in that moment, which I am more aware of than ever is the purpose of my art.
So instead of looking outside for the answers, I've come to understand it's an inside job. My 12th House energy gets louder and louder, revealing itself in my insatiable urge to immerse myself in the study of spirituality, philosophy and mysticism. I devour books and spend countless hours with Youtube videos and Podcasts about interpreting the Tarot, reading the Akashic Records, Astrology, Channeling, Near Death Experiences, Meditation, Buddhist Chanting, the life of Yogis, Psychic Mediumship, Star Seeds, opening the "Clairs", Past Life Regression and just about anything else I can get my hands on.
Discovering and embracing this placement has given me purpose, joy and hope! I know I am walking the path towards my highest and best good in this lifetime, where it manifests in both my art, and in my ability to inspire others to be brave and walk their true path as well.
So for today, I hope that maybe this piques your interest in uncovering the reasons that you are drawn in certain directions. You may already be on your own highest path in this lifetime and not even see it, because you are so busy questioning it, fighting it, or listening to what others may think is right for you.
You may even want to do your own Natal chart. There are several sites on the internet where you can do one for free. You just need to enter your exact birthdate, time and place of birth. You can find your own North/South Node, which could provide some AHA moments for you, helping you to start unconditionally loving those parts of yourself that you once thought were wrong, but turns out are really divinely, perfectly right.
And finally, let's go back to the beginning and talk for a moment about how this all relates to that whirling, swirling list I mentioned earlier. My spiritual practices have helped me to know how to quiet my mind, and then make choices on how to use my time that continue to move me to my highest purpose, one step at a time, using both my art and my writing to gain clarity to better explain what, why and how I create, thus raising my own frequency, which in turn will help raise your frequency as well!! Now that's a real win win!! And that's why I'm here.
With Love and Light,
Linda
